Better to try and fail

So here i am, returning from a too long writing vacation. i dont know if its that i was to lazy or that there wasnt nothing going on.
I think its the first one cause to tell you the truth a lot has been going on lately. Mostly in my heart. It was broken once more. But i got back from the ashes and i know what a cliche. I got back from the dead. And even though you judge me i judge myself even more. I dont know if i was desperate to feel anything at all or just to have someone to hold on to. But i couldnt get neither, instead i got terrible experience that ultimately lead to my renewal. I know exactly where it happened and how it happened but i'm not going to go into many details. I just understood that this world has a balance. That there are no coincidences. That what happens happens for a reason. That God is in everything and everyone. The sun comes up for everyone not just for a few. Not everything is what it seems. That its better to fail than never to have tried. That love like matter cannot be destroyed, it can only be changed. I realized that there were some things in my life not worth fighting for. And that there were some worth my time and my blood. So in the end what can you do? Sit down and live the rest of your life feeling and acting like a victim. Or getting up and move on like a true warrior should do. Nothing can bring you down, only yourself. And not even then will you give in. I also learned to live every minute of every hour. Without thinking of what to do next. Without thinking back on mistakes i've done. I'm beginning to live the present as the present and not as a reflection of the future or the past. I have learned to enjoy every moment sad or happy, true or false. There are just somethings that are not for us to decide. Short of breath ill tell you stop worrying so much.