The things we love are always first to go

I know i shouldn't be writing this letter. Its inappropriate, and a little bit desperate. I also know that if i gathered the courage to write it, i should also have the courage to send it. There are no shortcuts to heaven, i learned this the moment i met you. Throughout my life I've made countless mistakes which i sooner or later regret. But yours i regret everyday. And i realize this because you don't wake up next to me. Your smell, your silly laugh, I miss you. And i know it sounds out of the blue, but i do, i really miss you. I miss that night when my moon were your eyes and my tomorrow was you. I miss our talks, i miss our fights. I miss all those seconds lost from time. But i guess non of this matters now. Because you made a choice. Unlike me you followed your heart and it led you to him. I hope you'll never forget me, cause I know i'll always remember you. The things we love are always first to go..."aún hoy aún hay".

PS

Maybe this was never meant to be. All that it was is what it is. I just can't believe it slipped out of my hand, but then again it wasn't my choice was it? I did all i could, but a couple of laughs couldn't cut it. You needed someone that'll be there 24/7. I tend to forget that 21st century girls have a funny way of choosing their lovers, or letting some go for that matter. And now I'm all alone, staring at a face upside down. Regretting a mistake i never should have made. Now you're leaving everything behind. Tonight you'll probably arrive to a different World, and once you get off that plane, it will be impossible for me to try. So the most i can do is wish you goodbye.