BACK THEN

Now thats the girl i fell in love with back then. Time passes. Time fucking passes. I lost you out of fear. I never meant to let you go. It just happened. A mistake. A regret. A moment of weakness in a life of strength. The hair and the eyes. Your smile. That same smile that took me to heaven every time it showed me it's pearls. I still sleep on the same bed where your body used to lay. Motionless it staid, waiting for a reaction to the action of the night before. And i can't believe it all has gone away. Time took it from me. Your smell, my drug. Your body i desired. Your character inspired my own. But time took it all away. My days are not happy as then. Now i worry. Now i cry. Now i drink in regret. There was non of that when you were by my side. Because all i ever wanted or needed I had. Now i feel empty no matter how much action i get. Its like swimming in a lake, wanting salt water. Despite they're both water, it's not the same. You left my heart one day. I tried to move on. And i kind of did. I just miss those days in which my skies were bluer. The grass was greener. The sun was brighter, and the nights were warmer. Darkness was as far as Jupiter. And now its as close as Earth. I guess its true what Robert Frost once said: "Nothing Gold can stay". But at nights before i go to sleep i say to myself: "Stay Gold, pony boy". Just for hope. Hope that there's someone out there that will make my skies bluer. To give the hatred away. Make way for love. At least it was worth the wait, right?